After All

I am not shocked 

nor surprised

by the way you 

try to distract me

from the truth

Between the falls

I ponder 

yet I have conquered

those delicate

ill fated reasons 

for failure  

though you

can't seem to help yourself

Tempted to blow it

Just say it!

I DON'T WANT THIS!

TO HELL WITH ALL OF IT!

Sometimes the urge

to take away your smile

bleeds into my eyes

The colors flee from my mind

and choke all the pretty inside

Time to start over

just say never, 

again
 

Before Dawn

I wake. Earlier than anyone I love. Dreading to move but I know that the dreams I have will not be mine unless I get out of bed. It is still dark out. When I open the door in the early morning of darkness it takes me back. I am a child. Wandering outside while everyone was sleeping just to catch a glimpse of the Moon. I had a bad dream. Then, I was not afraid of the dark. Then, I did not know darkness as I do now. I come to and recollect my intentions. The door is open. I tense up. Holding my breath. There are monsters out there.

Welcome

I write about the breeze

The beauty that sets over the seas

From one coast to the next

I express a moment with my pen

I write about the joy

The loss where I gained hope

To the silence of a structured bitter end

The pride of a smile

A shadow of a dream

Life beckons